It’s not easy for me to get out. Because of my breathing issues (not breathing) doing simple things become quite complicated. First I have to plan everything out, every step. I won’t go out without taking a shower first. This requires getting undressed, taking a shower, washing my hair, drying off and getting dressed again. This is such a simple thing but not when you can’t breathe. Go ahead and hold your breath from start to finish. Do tell me how that went.
So generally, not only can it take me a couple of days to take a shower and recover after, I also have to pick a day when I can breathe well enough to do it. It’s not just ‘jump in the shower’, it’s wait until I can breathe enough to do it.
Lately, when I brush my hair it has fallen out in hanks. It was horrifying to see how much hair was in the brush after. And I know if I washed my hair, it would fall out there, too. So I was very reluctant to wash my hair. It had to be done, however. I’ve spent days trying to motivate myself into washing my hair until I realized it just wasn’t going to get done. So had had my partner shave it. This isn’t a big deal to me. I’ve shaved my head 4 or 5 times. Meh. At least now, washing my hair is nothing. There’s one block gone.
Now I got to get my behind in the shower. Then I can go to A&E and get my heart checked.
Silent Scream 