I’m pretty sure I’ve mentioned I do art, watercolors specifically. I have a youtube channel where I post my works. This involved planning, painting, editing and uploading completed video. I try and do one a week. I do more when I’m well and schedule them out, so when I get sick, things are still going up.
I’m not the greatest artist – only been painting a year – but I put a lot of effort into it. And learning editing isn’t easy. Even though my subscribers are really small, I do my best.
Three or four video’s back, I realized something. Whenever I’m recording, partner comes in and makes noise. I have explained to him this creates a lot of work for me and please don’t come in when I’m recording. So this one video, he comes in and starts talking. I tell him I’m recording, he says okay, and continues to talk. Again, I said I’m recording – and a third time. He just continued. It made me realize – he does this all the time. That one recording was so corrupted with his talking, I actually just said screw it and didn’t post it at all. He’s come in, made tea (kettle sounds, sharp spoon on cup crashes), smoked, washed dishes, walked across the floor with sharp crack sounds of flip flops (he never before or since made that sound).
This last video, he comes in and stares at me. I continue painting, I say not a word. After about 1 minute, and I’m starting to get creeped out, he walks over, lights a cigarette. He slides glass things across the counter. Turns on the kettle. Makes tea. Washes a pan, slaps it onto the stove. Comes over to me and says: I washed the frying pan for you. I nod, silent. He comes closer, blocking my light. Stands there a minute. Grunts and leaves. This is the eighth video he has interrupted. Eighth. You need to realize, I can’t complain. He was doing something nice! Washing a frying pan, unasked. Or he would have said, if I’d made a fuss. I wonder if my silence cock-blocked that strategy?
He does everything he can to disrupt, break or corrupt my possessions or work. Then praises my art. There’s got to be a word for this, but I don’t remember or know what it is.
Here’s another example. I’m doing a recording, he comes in and starts the clothes washer. Never comes back. Next day, I’m doing a second recording. He opens the washer and starts snapping the wrinkles out of the clothing. Really loud. I’d swear he threw out a shoulder. I say, I’m trying to record! He says: I’ll just be a minute. Twenty minutes later, he’s finally run out of clothes to snap.
Eight videos in a row. That’s two months of uploads. Every single time I’m recording. What a dick move.
Silent Scream 