Abuse

I am in a bad medical condition. I can’t breathe. I have copd and right now, there is a strong flair up. My blood ox is bouncing between 89 and 95. This isn’t good.

I did manage to convince my partner to come home yesterday to help me. He has taken good care of me all day today. I’m quite surprised, honestly. He has offered tea, food, and care without asking and without my asking him for help. This is way out of his normal.

However, this evening, he want’s to leave the house for 4 hours. I begged him not to go. He doesn’t realize, just being here helps me. I don’t have to worry about answering the door or phone, or getting water or getting me medical attention. I need him here. But I guess he’s done his bit for the day.

But by leaving me alone, knowing I am in a medical emergency, I think of as abuse. Just because he did well all day, doesn’t mean the job is done. He doesn’t absolutely need to leave and anyone who knows what’s going on wouldn’t think less of him (probably more).

I just wish I could breathe.